The Sims

I really don't think i can get any sleep...if i don't pour out all these garbage in my head...

ouch......why do i seek to protect my ego....its like..once you do it...your value drops like fuck...

there is no harm to harmless fun....reward ppl when they casts their egos aside....i just realised i punished ppl thinking that it makes me look alpha, but now i realise it looks insecure...esp, when the comments of bystanders should not even matter..all these comments are just testing for congruency...just let the pressure build endlessly on my turf....and suck it all up...

my ego here is not important...whats important is that i reach that final goal...

if you punish others, ppl might be afraid to express themselves in future.

excuse me ppl if i've hurt any of your feelings...at least be glad that i now know my mistakes...



i gotta stop validating myself too.....

also i got the clearer idea of, qualification, disqualification....and seeding(builds verbal commitments)...grounding sequences...

its just funny, how much rote learning guys have to go thru to understand this.....and hock chuan puts it correctly....."even if we become masters, we're still victims to the opposite sex...".......not all though, but some of them esp, their levels of awareness is so high, you just can't pull a fast one if you slip...