Food Review 1, Rotten Tomatoes where they belong.

It is with my utmost disappointment that i write this to you today. And though i do not have any pictures to proof, being a connoisseur of all things fine..... you have to trust my words.

I've never written a food review before...this is absolutely not experimental and purely instigated by the misleading marketing but poor products.

I skipped breakfast today besides just having 2 softboil eggs for protein....and was so looking forward to an indulging meal at Wendy's joint that sprouted out of the middle of nowhere between Boonlay MRT and Jurong point near where i live...... It certainly projected the idea of a depot of gleaming hope with its big red signage, strategically situated in the middle of nowhere like the Great Pyramid of Giza in the middle of the desert.

I like the place and its ambience if its not for the bad quality food. Inside, there are no tables...just two long "bar" tables all perpendicularly placed, outlining and facing the glass windows/walls....(and some small circular tables where you eat standing.) Nice to be able to eat and people-watch, cute girls passing by just 1-2 metres away outside, in the day or the evenings.

Standing 3 meters from the counter, i analysed the possible permutations of food which i will get to obtain optimal indulgence, value-for-money and serving size. I opted for, a 1/2 quarter pound medium combo $7.85 + $0.50, a small tub of "chili"(the minced beef/beans/peppers mix thingy available in american restaurants.) $2.60 and a swap of the drink to chocolate milkshake additional $0.40

I was really hungry at this point of time......tasted the fries and chili first....didn't improve my appetite at all, supposedly i was very hungry.. Tried to take a sip at the chocolate milkshake using their thin straws.....left me more impatient than ever.....quickly unwrapped the burger kept in silver foil. (FYI, studies have shown that silver foil drives the idea that the food within it is fresh into our subconscious....which explains why butter and margarine are always wrapped in silver foil.)

Took the first bite....and a tidal wave of disappointment floods my body.....you know how it feels when you're sexually aroused and all that feel-good chemicals, oxytocin, dopamine, dolphins, endorphins starts to swim around and flood your physical senses?.....put a negative sign to that equation and thats how it feels to be TURNED OFF.

I forced myself thru this meal just so to fill my stomach....and after having lost almost a kg through all the late nights the past week...i didn't bother to finish the last bit of the burger, nor the last few strandling fries, nor the beans in the chili....spent a few seconds picking out the minced beef to chew for pure amusement......and the milkshake, yeah...(you should never get milkshake from fast food places ever!.......only billy bombers serves good milkshakes because they use B&J icecream.)......the milkshake was so thick, i gave up giving the thin straw a blowjob....cos not much seems to enter my mouth after trying for sometime....

My list of other much-hyped-about failures include:

1. T.G.I. Friday's

well the other places are not even worth my time mentioning.....

I've been to Chilli's once, but i'm can't judge because i was there for my friend's bday in january and i wasn't really tasting the food properly....thus i'm sure it isn't as great as it cracked up to be...cos my attention wasn't drawn to the food that much that day...

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Of course, this random observation brings me to my NEXT observation.. Singapore, and its lack of colour...

Wendy's, TGI Fridays, Carl's Jr, Burger King, Macdonalds.....or Koi's bubble tea(Good, but still not as interesting as the choices that Taiwan offer...)..and anything "novel" that was introduced to differentiate from the already current onslaught of things to experience in Singapore......probably great at their country of origin.....but poorly established here in singapore...

Its not the company, its not the culture nor the marketing or any external factor...its the people.

Whatever uni you're going into, NUS, NTU, or SMU......an elite or humble neighbourhod jc, secondary, primary school.....seemingly diverse from the outside......we're still a bunch of losers deep inside....we just can't escape the fact we're......"a lot of bad things all together"...

Sigh, lack the energy today to engage in a heated criticism of the world...another time.

This zombie infection that plagues only Singapore??? Or is it out there already affecting the world's population.....

We truly need innovative, creative, talented individuals out there to lead us out of this mediocrity..

Primal Scream - Can't Go Back - OFFICIAL VIDEO

Like song lyrics start to make sense when everything else doesn't..

"Men don't know how to be men because women don't know how to be women. And women don't know how to be women because men don't know how to be men."

In every situation worth fighting for, there comes a point where the inner 'sean' appears and messes up every ounce of rationality in your head. Your dominance reduces to nothing, and you allow your emotions to envelop you.....Fear grips your heart.............

or rather, mine.

Over the last few days, i realised the patterns started to evolve and the radio frequencies in my mind darts haywire. Emergency response takes over, and despite the ensuing state management and forced dominance....it just passes off as another feeble attempt to reaffirm the control....

I've met with these scenarios so often these days......ugh...the need to handle rejection, which i feel ashamed talking about.....it feels like....having the word "FAIL" in CAPS... and in bold stuck to your face and at every direction that you turn. My heart just sinks really low and all the life thats left in it dissipating into some thin black haze...

What a relief now, that i've finally snapped out of it...relieved of those evil clutches..

OK... :D and into today's business...a few things i wanna highlight, but i guess it'll pop up sporadically here and there...so bear with me...but you're alr here..so i guess you will.

Refractory periods....to express it properly, it feels a lot like when the girl has her PMS.......and everything seems to go wrong.... ok, SERIOUSLY...with emotion and attraction, positive vibes, or negative feelings, compare these, with nature, and with the refractory period that you get after a man's orgasm or like feeling satiated from a bloated meal.......what goes up must come down....no matter how hard you try to turn the wheels of anybody, after too much has been said and done, it will breakdown for awhile.....take a break whatever....because it can be ready to run again......if you look at those highly highly emotional screaming fans running after Elvis or the Beatles, as soon as the celebrities turn around and give some flying kiss or look into their eyes whatever....yep...they faint -_-" .......their buying temperature pumped so high that they eventually breakdown..LOL

so...with whatever pain/loss or like elation and ecstasy...it will not last forever....its going to swing to the other end sooner or later, then when its ready, it'll come back again...

Onto another thing which i've been wanting to write about so much these days.....
that dancing, i've been taking salsa classes recently, is a microcosmic example of the interaction between male and female....its like seeing a "love story" playing in fast-forward right before your eyes.....i won't get to much detail here cos i'm too tired....but the whole emphasis of leading a girl emotionally/physically/sexually on the dancefloor like every other situation is the same...

Everyone starts out a loser/newbie in life/dance.....
at first, i don't know what the hell i was doing and i know that the girl is a much better dancer=hot girl that you're trying to hit on(even though it doesn't even matter) and i'm just freezing on my line of thoughts or steps to take=thinking consciously of the things to say to that hot girl.....then apologizing profusely like a fucking loser for your amatuerishness=apologizing profusely like a fucking loser for your shortcomings.

I'm so guilty of the above, and i wallow in disgust.

So to do well in life or salsa,

• Make decisions but be soft(like dionne mentioned, so not to drag the girl and hurt her arm or whatever)
• be passionate and know what you want
• appreciate her and make her look good

"yeah, dude you want to be able to assert dominance and confidence in all of your affairs...and to have some sort of honesty integrity and get what you want....know what you want....and be able to go out there and get it...but to get there....man! that path is always screwed up..." - El Topo

I'm really tired..

Do not mistake this as an indicator of the current state of being that i'm in.... with regards to the highlights of the past week, weeks, month, months, year...i should indeed be one of the happier ones out there....but such is the frailty of humanity...
just like you, i am pessimistic most of the time, only that living an optimistic lifestyle and projecting an optimistic aura purely for productivity..

not that i'm not content, but this journey will be a long one..

i'm right up there....but up here, is plagued with lots of emotional struggle....painful ego...

down there, the illusion of comfort, where my fragile ego, like a shiny glass ball tucked safetly on a fluffy pillow...

which side should i resign to?....both.

ppl out there who want to live life according to the blueprints laid out by conventional ideals...

i hate to decide, or have to decide....i used to be a really fickle-minded person....
but really, everything have changed since.....still, i no longer decide...i let situation and circumstance determine my actions...i live truly...in the moment..and JUST DO IT.

"Lecher Bitch" live - GENITORTURERS

lol...for your amusement only..

Ari Gold delivers speech in therapy

Ari Gold demonstrating a NLP technique called Pacing and Leading to persuade his obstacles.
He figures that there is no point arguing, being defensive which would in no way allow him to dominate...thus he paced by admitting his true intentions(which his wife is accusing him of) to build a common understanding/rapport and then lead the target in the direction that he wants...

:) use this to turn the tables when odds/akwardness is stacked against you..

Lost in Transition

Life sucks when you have to think....

Been pretty lazy and passive for the past few weeks....only because my preparation in the previous months has allowed such luxury and precise reflexes...

I guess its back to building that pipeline again.

FREEDOM!!!

The screeching cries, desperate pleas of these men as they rose to battle.... "FREEDOM!!!!!!".....rushing towards the "red coats" and to their imminent deaths...

Yes, you've prolly seen it in one of the many scenes in Mel Gibson's "The Patriot".....and i rmb it from a half-life mod that i used to play about the American Revolution...

For all young men who had no choice but to live through their twenties during the below mentioned, (Cultural revolution, Great Depression, World war I & II.....etc)....they were unlucky enough to be born in an age where even if they were to survive with not a single scratch.....their lives are forever doomed...by the time the economy picks up, when peace has returned....the are prolly in their late 30s, 40s....full of strife, their prime spent during the darkest of times... a lost generation of youths, traumatised, fearful, without a shot at success.....


I apologize....but please take moment to consider your position today.....That we are surrounded by opportunites, that we have nothing stopping our way.... Opportunities waiting to be leveraged and claimed.... Without a doubt, there will be obstacles in the way....but....Our biggest ally: Faith & Audacity....and our biggest enemy: Lack thereof

I write this today, because for me and many others that i've spoken too or met have pledged our lives to obtaining what we want......whether it be hedonistic materialism, or selfless social work.... Our time on this planet has to be worthwhile.....(28, 251 days - a human being's lifespan)

Like many others, ride a motorbike, pursue arts....& dance, travel the world, make plenty of investment returns, build a harem of women, become a suicide bomber, die a martyr.....they give up!...Only a few ppl, insanely audacious enough ever makes it....and its not about the recognition, validation one receives from others that defines your success.....We define "success" in our own terms.. (pardon the corniness)

Like they say, "there is a thin line between Genius and Insanity. I have erased this line." - Oscar Levant
(I wonder if this explains why quite a number of artists are "expressively" gay....just gay is not enoguh)

We are here to take a stand!...nobody can stop us, not the voices of your pathetic aging parents past their prime telling you what to do from their passe experiences that brought them inevitably to their reluctance of you procuring your success. And instead ask you to walk the well-worn path, full of security, a stable job, a wealthy husband, a big CPF pension and everything else except Freedom to associate with the world in your own terms....

Not your submissive wimpy dissonant petty old cynical nihilistic friends (pardon the overabusive use of bombast to describe insecurity).....can tell you that you are "becoming a different person", someone that is "too serious to hang out with"...."too weird" or "too try-hard"....
It is even inevitable that one would look weird or try-hard initially....as that is how you figure out balance through calibration..you'll know where to tone it down only thru first-hand experience

Honestly speaking, without struggle and rebellion in your formative years and taking that risk of losing everything for the sake of your passions....you'll never grow.
I shut them out COMPLETELY....family, friends, all that negative energies..

LKY has his point.... but of course, we are spoilt, not hardened...
http://www.temasekreview.com/2010/02/17/interview-with-kenneth-lin-15-year-old-singaporean-who-started-a-petition-against-lee-kuan-yew/
However...not totally useless..this is battle against ourselves.
Blame our education system and policies for succeeding in churning out obedient working-class citizens


Rmb....there are many like you along this journey....i've spoken to a few china students(as young as 18) or even the filipinos that come here to work...they give up their home and family to make something of themselves...

Shall end here...enough pep talk...a part of me does still feel insufficient...however i didn't write this today just for myself....but also for the ppl around...

Give up the comfort, or give up your future.

2046

2046 Vs The Age Of Innocence

The Age of Innocence by Martin Scorsese

It was a dread to watch this film......Not that it wasn't a good movie...but i hated absolutely every single character in this movie.....Newland Archer, the main protagonist is a fucking wimp and pussy.....the film may be realistic to some, and some may understand the obstacles and impossibility of him ever staying together with Countess Ellen Olenska (Michelle Pfeiffer), if so, these ppl are stupid..... in a society (1870s) where there are strict customs and traditions to uphold to, where family honor tops over one's personal interest...

The whole story basically concludes that all the characters gave up their lives and romance for the sake of protecting their street cred, from becoming a social outcast during the high society then... And sadly, that May (winona ryder) lived her whole marriage in denial, even though she knew her's was a marriage of convenience...and that her man loved another woman.....

Bleh....all a bunch of cowards....made worst by Newland Archer's extreme neediness.....

Spoiler Alert!
The last scene, Newland went all the way to Europe after 20-30 yrs to see Ellen, only to chicken-out at the ground level of her apartment.......it is portrayed as a happy-ending though, because Newland concluded that it was pointless to see her again, someone way back in the past, and that he was satisfied with everything he had now...but in psychology terms, Cognitive Dissonance....or sour grapes...
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However, all is not lost..... I watched 2046 today....and despite it having a depressing, sad ending in contrast to Innocence's try-hard serene ending

It showcased a lot of instances, more like all instances that love was purely emotional validation...barriers, like most dark love stories....obstacles that prevented a relationship from ever developing far from.....emotional validation....perhaps...in reality, anything after that is mundane....thats why its never talked about in these films..

yeah, the characters, lots of frame games between them...flash game.....baiting each other to chase....sympathy...pure clean fun and innocent love before things start to get complicated....

ALL the characters in the show...are searching for something worthwhile, but really, most of the time its an escape.. all of them running away as well....however, they don't seem like cowards...haha..because in this movie, it seemed that everyone has done their best and done absolutely everything they can but that it circumstance....thus they suffer...

OK rather than read my weak attempt at describing the story,

"As Chow Mo-Wan's life is revisited, we learn that he is still struggling to get over the loss of his idealized love, Su Li-Zhen. He returns to Hong Kong after being in Singapore for a number of years to try to forget his anguish. To cover up his pain, he becomes a suave ladies man. Chow attends many lavish parties and beds many women." - wikipedia

Now girls, before you start thinking that Tony Leung's character is a big flirt, player type....his not.....*besides trying to defend myself*....he is simply honest with them and sincere most of the time...(there is no hot and cold manipulation in this movie..)...he does not hide his feelings and often expresses it to those he loves...and not because he is saying it or validating girls expecting sex in exchange...Displayed by his love for faye wong, in this case carefree and as a 'friend'.....encouraging her to go to japan to be with her lover...which she did, and got married..

In the final scene, Mr Chow ends up alone and pathetic....i personally don't think its because he couldn't let go of his loss.......

Anyway, if i were to put myself in his shoes....and finally grasping the fact that, everyone ends up lonely...which most ppl would deal with sooner or later....he has everything to be happy about...a fling when he wants to,....so i'm actually quite happy for him!

Anyway, instead of going to BKK this wednesday....decided to delay that trip and go to Macau....to check out, possibly...the film set of 2046, and stay in that hotel.... really excited to travel alone this time.....

The Dark Side of The Force

I was going to bitch non-stop about an issue from a friend...regarding losers being losers..sigh..but i guess i had better respect that person's privacy......

however it did spark another thought within me..

"It was there that he got the idea to teach public speaking, and he persuaded the "Y" manager to allow him to instruct a class in return for 80% of the net proceeds. In his first session, he had run out of material; improvising, he suggested that students speak about "something that made them angry", and discovered that the technique made speakers unafraid to address a public audience."

The above excerpt was about Dale Carnegie, a renowned self-help writer in the 1930s....
His concepts and ideas are prolly well replicated and copied through the years...However it was after reading the above paragraph that took my attention...even then, i paid little attention to it when i read it yesterday...

Today, after my friend shared with me her particular stringy situation, a bolt of anger struck me in my guts...it was unjust...i would have lashed out at her with my long strands of hypothetics on fear and insecurity and everything that didn't matter in the long term, if not for it being a light-hearted conversation.........
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Anger and frustration.....The primary source of our strength and motivation. Think about it, it is not beauty, or love, or passion.......RATHER, its the lack of these.....lack of materials...lack of beauty, love, passion......ones loneliness, naivete and ignorance that pushes one to go forward to change and put things in the right places...

Go figure!

The same reason why Ari Gold is such a commercially-viable and likable character...or why most anti-heroes resonate with us...

I would like to write more, but recently....the flame has diminished..
because i'm currently standing by the sidelines, sweating over that next big change..

until i get that out of my mind, i'm never in a mood to discuss anything else...