Judy

Very tired though.... To me, its hard work and discipline...




while i was tired today....i didn't complete my objectives that i set myself yesterday evening.... 6 sets. Loud, energetic, smile. 2 #-closes...


well, was tired...but DJ Fuji video reminded me of how hardcore i was at it...until recently i got too comfortable and lazy again...


It is true you know..... "Why do you suppose we only feel compelled to chase the ones who run away?"


Again i secured a instadate like....i think to me its easier than setting up a day 2....i've never had any day 2s....but i've been on 3 instadates now......sigh...why does it feel boring?? maybe i'm tired... Sinn felt like commiting suicide after figuring how to get laid....because it was too easy for him..........


Still, i was telling Evan earlier.....he thinks that... we may one day appear on Newpaper because of the things we did....yet, at the same time i think.....when we become natural enough, its not going to alert anybody at all.... Its just that, we ventured into an aspect of humanity few dare to explore...


Yet last week, when i spoke to these new friends.....they sounded as if they got it all sorted out too...


I use to end my entries with no conclusion....but today i like to set my mind at peace...Finally i found it easy that i can just snip away at any bullshit that i don't want surrounding myself....


I love challenges! and i'm not saying this to sound ridiculously cliche.......

It just that i keep abandoning that fear of rejection...and keep dishing out high-risk compliance pings....and well, i keep lose my sets after that...and i give up...



Today, i am not going to NEXT...i'm going to keep pushing just so that i can learn to recover next time....






EVERYONE....have a GREAT week ahead.........please, with my utmost sincerity...i hope all of you discover a new passion. Enjoy a good experience... Fall in love. Make a new friend. Break out of your comfort zones..


3 more weeks till ord...you guys stay focused, whatever makes you happy......





Archie Gates: You're scared, right?
Conrad Vig: Maybe.
Archie Gates: The way it works is, you do the thing you're scared shitless of, and you get the courage AFTER you do it, not before you do it.
Conrad Vig: That's a dumbass way to work. It should be the other way around.
Archie Gates: I know. That's the way it works.


- Ziqzak