Compiled list of goals...

Ok....i'm going to be talking about the things that i want to do after i ORD, and thats 35 days more.... i probably have this written on my notebook somewhere....but i think i;ll never really look at the same page twice....or the helpful notes that i have in there, i think cos i spend most of my time online....its only practical i have one here....(i'm going to get a massive majong paper and write it down paste it on the ceiling in my room)

1) Travelling.... and languages perhaps?
Europe(for arts, culture and fashion), Eastern Europe(for politics), USA(where hot girls congregate), Japan(for their street fashion,music and comics), Thailand(nightlife and sex industry), Brazil Mexico South America(latinos!) Cambodia Vietnam(get that explorer, world loving, multi-cultural tolerant, empathetic) Africa(wild-life and the prymids), Middle-east(religion, rich arabs) and the beaches around the world

the top most in my mind now...ppl do this for many reasons....for example, bring out that liberal part of themselves to the world....which for me i don't think i need this to do so, but i really want to break out....maybe its some migratory instinct that brought mankind out of africa 10,000 yrs ago passed down..maybe its the internet that has hinted at how such a lifestyle could be attractive.....liberation..

2) Job
nightlife, fnb, fashion, departmental store.........

i've grown tired of explaining this....i've never worked before, not even part-time...i guess i've been happily repressed in the past....but just to learn skills, interact, earn money, to move out and travel...and do everything i so desire...


3) Work-out

4) Moving out or better, migrate...
again, this instinct.....the need to break out from the gene pool and replicate...as Matt Ridley likes to put it...

i have trouble hanging out with my family or old friends who seem only concerned with doing nothing intersting(i hate that i'm sounding this arrogant, but i can't help it)......

5) The most important of all......TIME MANAGEMENT

i never learnt this in school....i use to take pride in being mess,late and random....just seem so attractive when rock stars live such lives....but i guess....they only had one dream....i have plenty...

waking up early, self-discipline, and commitment....

These are the words that weeks ago, i would never dare associate myself with...we always like to think, that by trying hard, routiney is unnatural....and that being spontaneous is more attractive cos its natural.....well it is..but ambition....you do what it takes...
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i hate that i'm typing this post...really....i'm uncomfortable with being motivated....ppl...you know me...maybe everyone is....we 're all lazy...trying to develop this character is inhumane, maybe its the fear of failure or reprisal....the thing is to defy homeostasis...to do and not give excuses.....

I'M STRUGGLING TO WAKE UP EVERY MORNING, AND SHUT MY THOUGHTS AND CLOSE MY EYES SO I CAN SLEEP.....

maybe meditation is necessary.....i don't want to have periods of not doing anything....meditation could prolly allow me to relax, concentrate, increase efficiency, sleep better....


rambling yet again...
-Ziqzak