despite the times i keep telling myself i'm fine, i'm fine, i'm fine... there are just as many times when my mind kept messing with me....screwing myself up.... "this can't be happening..."....i would tell myself..
but my world, my reality has a war going on between angels and demons...between faith and doubt..
and i'll just quote someone from the next few lines...
Yes, the universe is not cruel. the universe is smart. It knows we won't appreciate the things that fall into our laps... usually it falls nearby and makes us work for it... like bodybuilders call it the pain period... those that are willing to face pain, exhaustion, humiliation, rejection or worse...
i'm at the brink of being out-of-control......the same fear that pokes me for a mere 10 seconds in the past...that same fear has constricted me and will continue in an endless strangle-hold for the next few weeks BECAUSE I"M NOT GIVING UP...this isn't gonna stop me......i'm only human, i would give up and run...but because i believe in love, and i can't give up now...i will hold on till that very last breath.. the heart has no master, and thats the beauty of it.
Pen, you inspire me.. to live up to it. I'm coming back for you.
*exhale*
*inhale*
Breathe
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p.s. i don't mean "I'm coming back for you" in the male chauvinistic pig way...just figuratively speaking... its more like the other way round..
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