o_O psychedelic drugs

Would you take it?..not knowing what might be installed for you if only you had taken it.....don't you get curious about things that could have been if only you had acted a little differently?

GOD DAMN IT!!!!.......this was one of those times where there was an opening(this wasn't the first time, and now i hate my guts), and i picked the red pill over the blue one because i wasn't adventurous enough!!!!...FUCK!

i only realised this today, after reminiscing about the events that happened.....

reminds me of something robert kyosaki mentioned in his rich dad poor dad, that some guy, which i've forgotten the name, was very rich...and the stock market crashed. He lost all his money and became bankrupt...but within 2 years or so time, he earned back his fortune.....

why? because he knew how to manipulate money...he could spot these investment opportunities that common ppl were blind to, the rest of the world didn't have enough experience in investing compared to the ones who could identify these opportunities and grab hold onto them...


many people around me, or rather a huge majority of them would always say that i think too far...and it wasn't even because i was sharing with them some over-the-top, building-castles-in-the-air, overly-ambitious-grand scheme..................it was because i had a broader perspective, of limitless possibilities available to me...

ppl think its ridiculous......i think its not enough, i think i wasn't thinking further...i need to think outside of my box so much more for what i hope to achieve...to spot those yummy golden nuggets


oh man!!.....and the fact that human beings have logic and could plan things in advance....its more of an impairment than an asset......holding on to my belief that we are emotional creatures afterall, the logic and the ability to plan, only inhibits yourself from higher order powers such as creativity, innovation and moments of brilliance from ever being realised!

it seems that we use logic and plan for things only because we are afraid of it. Afraid that things will not happen as we would like....and we seek to restrict/govern it in fear instead of letting it grow free-form

and we so often shoot ourselves in the foot, curb our own greatness....sacrificing a great opportunity only to have things "go as planned"...


Sigh.....i was constantly in my head and thinking of what needs to be done...instead of letting loose and "feel the force"....if only i had forgo all inhibitions, such as time-constraint.....why measure time?! why have routines?!...if you broke these, you could just get what you were looking for!

it was like rushing off to work to earn a living when you had a billions dollars on your head...if only you took the time to look up and NOT AHEAD

*knock my head against the wall*