Marriage is not the cure for lonliness.

Short post...
Despite my best efforts to hide my desperation...i sometimes crack and that tidal of emotional turmoil comes pouring out.

Its not easy and it definitely take some immense amount of soul searching and the discipline of a warrior to cast it out..

Until this day, i am far from perfect....my dreams of at least becoming an Ari Gold in this life will be a long journey from here...

For a moment just now, my weakness as a human being was exposed....i always approach from a "mutual-benefit" pov, but for awhile i lost it, and was a little selfish.....it feels like an infringement on ppl's rights..

That's all