Everyone wakes up from a dream or a nightmare eventually, and will have to figure things out for themselves all over again.
A bad experience is an experience nonetheless. I found out that the world is a cold place where friends can become enemies. Love never transcended the space between 2 lives. Merely a non-transcendent unvalidated social construct in a person's lonely mind while things are okay, and falls apart when not. Just 2 individuals that was living in their separate worlds feeding off one another until one day a overreaction peels off the gentle exterior to reveal the selfish gene that brought us together. My heart and mind had made the wrong bet. Animosity may have been preselected and there is no way i could have avoided it without losing my freedom.
I don't think i'll ever be forgiven. People get too caught up in their own hatred. And it has simply happened to every man that has broken up with a woman, he has no chance to explain himself and receives her life-long unjust contempt in return.
Strangely, i have managed to "want" to let it slide. And with some financial loss on the side. I wonder how my ancestral line survived without this huge insecurity (ok, i got a slight insecurity).
Maybe its all this self-distancing that is making me feel better. No wait, more like having imaginary readers to complain to so that i get my sense of redemption.
A bad experience is an experience nonetheless. I found out that the world is a cold place where friends can become enemies. Love never transcended the space between 2 lives. Merely a non-transcendent unvalidated social construct in a person's lonely mind while things are okay, and falls apart when not. Just 2 individuals that was living in their separate worlds feeding off one another until one day a overreaction peels off the gentle exterior to reveal the selfish gene that brought us together. My heart and mind had made the wrong bet. Animosity may have been preselected and there is no way i could have avoided it without losing my freedom.
I don't think i'll ever be forgiven. People get too caught up in their own hatred. And it has simply happened to every man that has broken up with a woman, he has no chance to explain himself and receives her life-long unjust contempt in return.
Strangely, i have managed to "want" to let it slide. And with some financial loss on the side. I wonder how my ancestral line survived without this huge insecurity (ok, i got a slight insecurity).
Maybe its all this self-distancing that is making me feel better. No wait, more like having imaginary readers to complain to so that i get my sense of redemption.
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