SHOULD I STAY SHOULD I GO

i think decisions have been the hardest part.....a certain girl(or girls?..i'm a loser and a wimp..) use to tell me to be decisive many many years ago.....does this relate to how i am now?...nah not really..


wow...ppl have a hard time deciding what to do today..even realistically, its not much of a big deal...but they always say take small steps...what little effort that you invest today, play a big role in the outcome in future...

like deciding to smoke a cigarette today.....well..actually...its not even easy to get addicted...but if you do it today, theres a great possibility that it'll happen again next time.....i know its nonsensical but....statistics show that...and i'm sure all of you have heard of this...victims of rape are more likely to be raped again a second time..i guess willpower is that elusive...

then again...our lives change when you least expect it to.....look back and thinkof the habits(esp good ones) that you've kind of easily have adopted over the many months....
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the hardest part is deciding to do it..i'm reiterating this again....we all know its not easy stepping out of our comfort zone, i personally, as a person that i myself deem have stepped out of my comfort zone time and time again......Testify, that its not easy...

its easy to fall back into old habits....

i guess i haven't actually shared this with most ppl or i don't rmb the last person i told this to....i think it was many months ago...prolly 6 months or more....we all get sick and tired of hanging out with the same ppl again and again....i don't know if this happens to others....

cos archtypically, ppl lose touch with their friends only because they've found better friends.....and they've got new friends to hang out with, so they haven't got time for the old friends....'research' shows that a person can realistically have only 8 friends at any given time, that you feel really emotionally connected to....i think this research may be true, but doesn't prove anything....cos i don't see myself with having that many close friends at all...sometimes 1 or 2..most of the time none...

again i think i have a whole opinion on this....but i don't wanna waste any time....
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should i quit my job, is it more time that i need to meet my daily objectives?......or i could just work less days thus having to settle for less pocket money....

i don't need money now...doesn't mean i'll run short on my savings later....thinking of makin money thru my hobbies also...but that means having to invest some time, and scrimp on my savings for a few months(to practise) until i start getting good and it being a skill worth being paid for....

its prolly possible to work and put in extra time for that 'pipeline building' but wow.....i'm really lazy.....hope i can do it...and that time management is probably the best and most important and beneficial skill in life for you to accomplish anything else..... is to learn time management...

so i come to my conclusion, the same one.....i already came upon but was too lazy to see it thru many many weeks or possibly years of my existense....