Honest opinions about myself...

Need to constantly come clean with myself, so that i can improve to become a better person.....the worst case scenario is thinking that you're the best in the world but not having the results to prove it...

1. Still operating at extremely self-conscious mode...Too serious ALL THE TIME....my ego deserves a WALLOP to realise how puny i actually am, and that nobody actually cares about you more than yourself...as much as possible, you don't have to give a fuck about what others think...

2. not funny enough....whats funny is not the joke, but the energy and the vibe...

3. constantly trying to be cool...think about being less cool, and you become cooler...

4. i wish i was someone who could 'feel' instead of analysing every stupid detail....cos you'll know what to do, instead of trying to find out what to do...

5. too submissive to emotions......practise state control ALL THE TIME..

6. learn to make friends and have fun, instead of trying to get to know everything about somebody....its about RELATING to ppl....not GETTING TO KNOW ppl...

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Solutions?

1. Do whatever stupid thing that pops up in my mind ASAP, but may be too shy to do even in public.....That includes...singing out the song stucked in my head, dancing if i feel happy, insulting somebody even if it means hurting that person's feelings, cos if i do feel like it, he probably deserves it..

2. if someone is pumping buying temperature....must go pump along, and elevate it to greater heights....

3. wow this is hard...never talk about anything that i feel is cool about myself.......its hard to define, cos whats cool is also whats interesting...just not talk about myself then, not put myself in the picture.......e.g my music, my plans, my band, hockey, social science or which smu, alleybar or jobs, trips... ...if it ever gets there, change topic without answering the question...or drag it and make it sound ridiculous....or use the comment "That's bullshit"

4. do what the situation demands.......calibrate, and be instinctive...do not plan ahead...

5. if i get emo or jealous, two most common emotions i have.....MAke eye contact and smile to anybody immediately! and elicit a smile back!.......if jealousy brews, do soemthing selfless...like buying someone else a drink or meal......thus i'll get used to the idea of others benefitting and me losing...

6. same as 3., never ask them about their details...