i tried my best, but i couldn't sleep....rather than fight it, some magazines would advise...stop forcing sleep and do something worthwhile a little bit until i start feeling tired...
since the last milestone........back at the start of july i guess....in contrast, everything so far has been mundane...not exactly mundane, the slight tease that i receive every other day...and not that i haven't had moments created where i was forced to think on my feet...
still i was sharing with my buddies like 2 weeks ago, i've got so much to be happy about....i'm just bored that i'm no longer doing "bad" things...not much thrill....not thinking of chasing short-term gains...rather i'm fearing for my long-term school performance..sigh...WHAT A DRAG!
and while i really want to do well in school, my grades are not looking bright at the moment...i thought i could balance my life..but no, it has just relegated girls to..."hardly have the time to even think about it"....let alone try to make a move....
from the way i see it......ppl come and go....i would make it click, at the spur of the moment, within a matter of weeks...instead, i sit around and wait.....sometimes making half-hearted attempts.....putting ppl in a loose situation, not making ends meet.....all because of chasing schoolwork that never seem to end if you spend full attention to produce fine work.
to forsake all the amazing opportunities such as partying, getting a side job to earn some cash, travelling overseas, skydiving, more exploration for the sake of schoolwork?.....that just seem like the perfect singaporean thing to do....and i can't run away from it..FUCK
and the problem here...the problem with me.....time-management....i shouldn't be blaming schoolwork, cos i wasn't at optimal productivity either back then...i must have reached this conclusion a billion times in my life before...
time-management is the test of a real man...without it, makes one look like a loser no matter what pathetic skills one may have... what fear one has overcomed, or how much his balls have grown...
because coincidentally, like fear, a man has to face time!!!!!........ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh kill me already!!!!!!!
hahahha.....some of you reading this would probably be laughing to fits...it would be like me looking at an obese friend and not being able to understand why he can't just eat less, eat healthy and spend some time doing some exercise everyweek... or like looking at how most pppl cannot just walk up to a stranger and just open their mouths....
the challenge like all past challenges is simple....just do it....make it a lifestyle...
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