Mission Accomplished XD!!!!

i tell you....i just can't hide my excitement right now.... XD

like i promised.....i wasn't going to blog until i took a serious step in making my life change.....

WOW.

Just before i turn 20, i've accomplished what most ppl would never do...what most ppl would never have realised in their entire fucking lives. I've changed my reality forever. I embark on something, I'm so proud of myself.....i've seperated myself from the thousands of years of genetic make-up. Not my father, not my brother, not anybody half as miserable in their lives can ever take it away from me.

And i did all....just before i turn 20 this tueday......what i've discovered and wanted to do...for the past one and a half years. This last post, as an 19 year old teenager is significant.....

It was definitely quite easy and got the hang of it, after awhile...you just jump right in....doesn't matter who that person is or who they're with.....family parents, cockblock, well...i just did anyway...


Ah 19....rediscovering my lost youth....i broke many of my limiting beliefs, surprised many ppl...and most of all myself...

This satisfaction, i felt today..........i know i could repeat it a million times.... if i wanted to. If i could just die today, death would be easy. Receiving my PSLE score, my first show, then repeated playing on stage many times after that which was well-received by the audience, my O level grades, my project work, my A level grades, getting a perfect score in ippt.......

now that i'm 19......i repeated again and again some unimaginary feats....which i won't go about here, if not i would just sound like i'm boasting.....

i hate how it all reads here already...and i all of you reading this, would probably be in disbelief and pass this off......but this has been like the highest entry ever in 5 years of blogging....

Till i turn a ripe old age into my twenties this year.......

I really want to thank hockchuan(if you're reading this, you need a name change!) during this, for being with me during my darkest most desperate need...i really thought you sounded condesending most of time because i was the only one getting all the value out of doing all he shit, but you never backed out giving support because you were a good friend

i've challenged myself again and again.......my perceptions of fear, are being thrust here and there....i could almost know when fear comes...but dealing with that fear.....straight at its face.....in different applications and avenues taught me so much more, prep me so much more for the obstacles that i would face over the next 20 years. 7300 days.

can't say anymore...cos time is up and i have to book in.......wait to hear the next greater expedition. i will only do so, if i surpass and accelerate on my learning curve.....

till next time
ZiqZak