CHAPTER 1: Step out, Step in, Step UP

FOREWORD

took a break off blogging....so that i could break away from the fog of unimportance that clouds my sights...by revelling in whining of these issues, i've place too much emotional investments that builds a seperation wall, a berlin wall, great wall of china, preventing me from achieving self-actualisation. (i apologize for being this technical......only by doing so, i am washed away of my folly and being aboslutely objective towards judging my actions)

i'll definitely design, set objectives, give icing to this blog as it chronicles the adventures, new chapter, that i'll embark.......

i'm swayed to tell you why i'm doing this, this 'mid-life crisis', the events and history that led to this, influences by others, enviroment parents education, the sparks.....why i've held on to this risk, break away..................but all this to later.....i'm disappointed about my past and i will no longer dwell on it here for now, but concentrate on the present and the future.



STEP OUT OF THAT COMFORT ZONE

From this point forth, maybe i'm just going to be formal about this. I'm no longer a young boy, i should be serious and taking full responsibility of my voice, especially if this is a serious post.
Erik quotes,(and has played a large part in this movement, the conception and influence in my life's objectives) ' We have to leave the house, we have to go to some public gathering that is going to allow us the opportunity to find girls. Its pretty simple, thats the number one hardest thing for most people is getting out of the house. The idea of the calendar of filling it in with special occasions, that seems mundane. I would rather think of my calender as completely filled every single day i'm doing something to get out of the house. Its a conscious effort, it really is. We live amongst 6.45 billion human beings and that feeling of being at home alone, you know sitting on the computer, and you didnt go out for a week or two...'
I have many interesting things to say. But i better catch up to speed on things as time is short... Einstein, Thomas Edison, Leonardo Da Vinci and every other mother son that you looked up to had the same amount of lifetime, chances as you do to accomplish whatever tantamount ground-breaking.
The idea is simple. Stepping out of the house. Talking to a stranger. Bath in cold water. Getting a chemical burn. Riding a rollercoaster. Jumping off an airplane. Jumping into sea. Dining out, shopping, going out alone. Watching a horror movie late at night alone in the house. Backpacking around the world. Taking a walk alone along the seedy lorongs of geylang. Approaching a girl. Cut your palm. IV drip yourself. Smoke weed. Eat juicy cockcroach. Drink snake blood. Eat pufferfish. Walking around with your girlfriend in Holland Village NAKED. Starting a fight. Punch him. Face the brink of death.
Come on. Be honest to yourself. You would probably think of these actions as child's play. If you have done all these, I salute you. But for the rest of you out there, go ahead and try navigating the perils of the modern world, the Social Jungle. Face andrenaline. Fight or flight.
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So many of these lessons that modern people these days never partake. The risk to survival when faced with an obstacle blocking your goals. Have been trying to mould myself recently. The idea of parkour. And everything else...........that challenges the andrenal glands blessed/cursed/gift to us by God, Nature, Evolution. The direct opposite of an orgasm. Opposite of giving in. Opposite of reaching the point of no return but returning. Is, not caving in to fear, not giving excuses to fear.


On a sidenote, fyi, upon writing these entry, and along with all our actions. I am constantly in limbo, some things which i hesitate to write or not to write, not because of insecurity, but to challenge it. Its hard to seperate the emotions, the conscious from the sub-conscious. Writing something to prove an objective point, writing that point to qualify myself or writing that point because i'm insecure into an attempt to reframe myself.
All these which are hardly picked up by most people conscious minds but their subconscious. Call it Social Intelligence, Emotional Intelligence, Chemistry, Rapport, 'These guy gets it', 'These creepy guy just doesn't gets it'...............

Oh well time for some 'exercise', adventure, and the end of this chapter. Till next time.